Feel A Big Cry Coming On

I hate when this happens.  And it always happens when I find myself at the corner of What’s Next? and Which Way Do I Turn? Making changes in life is a necessary, ongoing process. Individual evolution and all that. And I totally own my decisions to hold ’em or fold ’em. But I keep forgetting I’m directionally dyslexic. Temporarily paralyzing.  Bear with me as I try to ward off the waterworks. Think happy thoughts, damn it….

  • Eldest daughter snagged dream job. Rah!
  • Youngest daughter is blissfully happy. Rah!
  • My parents are alive and vital. Rah!
  • My sister is hanging in and hanging on. Rah x 100!
  • Cooking Partner is so good to me. Woo!
  • Miss my heart friends (the ones who know me best and love me anyway). So lucky to have them. Hoo!
  • Am absolutely blown away by the people I know who are fighting major battles, with smiles on their faces. My heros. Rah!
  • Every time I read JoDee Luna’s blog, I come away with much to think about.  Her post today included the phrase, “Maybe the only treasures in this world are relational…”. I BELIEVE this with all my heart. It makes me happy. And sad for the people I know who can’t be bothered to consider this and act accordingly. Oy!

Oh no! Eyes are welling up with sad liquid. Would go find a bath sheet and let it flow… but have a haircut scheduled   this afternoon. Must think here. Stiffen upper lip. Go to hair deal. Come home. Allow dam to break unless divine intervention occurs. Whatever……


19 thoughts on “Feel A Big Cry Coming On

  1. As hard as we fight it at times, it is good for the dam to break from time to time. It will make you feel better…even though it doesn’t seem like it at the time! I promise. Thinking of you, Izzie.

    YOU are wonderful.

  2. When I was going through a divorce, I’d often sit and let all the pent up emotions flow out. I now own stock in Kleenex. But, I discovered that it’s not the end of the world and there are bigger and better things to come. You have wonderful daughters and supportive friends – use them often ’cause I know you already do. Hang in there, Izzie! I’m rooting for ya!

    • Mega – you are so kind, feel a sniffle coming on. You made me laugh – own stock in Kleenex – that is rich. I’m hanging and you keep rooting, ok? P.S. Many women LOVE a man who cries. I’m one of them. Just sayin” 🙂

  3. Let it out! You’ll be OK, everything works out in the end and a change is always an adventure. At least you are brave enough to take the odd chance.

    I really, really, like you. I’m amazed at all the wonderful women I’ve met through blogging (normally I’m not that keen on ’em). You have encouraged me, amused me and made me think. You’re awesome. *hug*

  4. back at you, Blogmella. You had me as a loyal friend and supporter that first Sunday I read “Feng Shui of the Penis” and was laugh/crying so hard my Cooking Partner thought I was having a seizure. When I could talk, all I could say is, “I adore this woman.” I, too, am really so shockingly delighted by the people here – more supportive at times than the flesh and blood standing right beside you, and also a whole lot funnier. Thanks, B. 🙂

  5. I’m with blogmella…I think we all like you!

    My blog has helped me to get through some difficult times…it’s really therapeutic to write down your feelings sometimes. Your family and friends support you, but are sometimes too close to you to be objective, so that’s where your online friends can take up the slack…

    I’ve been where you are…things always work out eventually…you are talented, and I’m sure the right job is out there waiting for you to find it!


    • You know, Wendy, my online friends are awesome – really, only yall and the few of my dearies that read this know about what’s shaking with me. It’s crazy wonderful. I refer to you all in many conversations, so much so that Cowgirl says, “Thar she blows … she’s having another blogasm.” And you are so right, writing is so theraputic. Trust me, I know I’m lucky. Thanks, my friend 🙂

  6. I think of the dam breaking as being necessary to move on. All those emotions backing up, makes it hard to think. But then you cry, you loosen up some of that crap, and it makes it easier to think. You’ve got to loosen up your body to get it to do more, you’ve got to loosen up the phlegm to get all the crud out of your chest when you’re sick, and you’ve got to let the tears go to stop whatever emotional roller coaster you might be on.

    Of course, there’s always a time and a place! If I may recommend – the shower works really well. Not a lot of clean up. 😉

  7. The shower, of course! You are so smart, DE, but then we already knew that! And yes, don’t want clogged emo arteries. Thank you, thank you, thank you for your very wise words. 🙂

  8. Thank you so much for the complement. I hate to tell you this but I’m in the same state you are, “Eyes are welling up with sad liquid.” I love your way with words. I just posted a real tear jerker about my daughter. Maybe you’d better not read it right now. 🙂

  9. Go on and have a good cry izzie, it’s good for the eyes occasionally.
    Hope you feel better soon.

  10. The obstacle is the path. ~Zen Proverb

  11. Oh no! Don’t cry. If you cry, I’ll cry.

    Actually I usually feel better after I cry, so maybe shed a few tears.

    I think you’re awesome. Feel better! =)

  12. I think You are awesome and I feel better 🙂

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